hungry

today i will let go of all the grudges I've held against the love I've never received. i will please it with my tongue out like a salivating dog ready to savour every crumb of it's food. i will put aside thoughts of reciprocation and take whatever is offered. i don't want to lose out anymore. i will grab every opportunity. i will be a hungry dog. i will feed myself till my stomach stretches beyond what it has room for. i will love out of spite, to show that I'm capable of it. i will claw at all the people I've loved but who never loved me back. i will grow flowers until the whiteflies ruin them. i will water the plant till it wilts. i will love you until you can ignore it no more. and when you do notice, you shall not find me but the fainting memory of me, for i'll be gone far away, looking for a love to indulge in for the sake of my own insatiable gluttony.